Yesterday, I had an epiphany while riding my bike out to Montauk.
I do not enjoy biking enough to ride 56 miles. (After I’ve swam 1.2 and before running 13.1.)
I originally signed up for this Half-Ironman because I wanted a new challenge. I had run four marathons, and I had beat my sub-4 goal that I’d been trying for. I’d done some triathlons, and finally really enjoyed one. Its distance was closer to Olympic than a typical sprint, so I didn’t think I’d feel that challenged training for an Olympic.
I was freaking terrified, and I did a lot of waffling back and forth. Finally, I said I’d committed and started training.
I did the Franklin Lakes Tri and then I did the NYC Tri.
I traveled to the Hamptons and Savannah in July, and the Hamptons again this weekend. Each weekend, I should have done at least a 2-hour workout, but I only did that the first weekend in the Hamptons. In Savannah, I just straight up made every excuse in the world, and only went on an hour-long bike ride with Ashley and did maybe 20 minutes of open water swimming in the bay.
After my bike freakout, I decided my goal was to enjoy the NYC Tri, focus on that, and make any decisions about the HIM then.
I have to give a big shoutout to both my coach and Victoria for putting up with my triathlon crazies. Cause there were a lot of them. I doubted whether I could finish. I doubted whether I could finish without getting swept.
Finally, after one last great email from Victoria last week, I realized I really could do it. I threw myself back into my workouts (which was easy, since I had a slightly easier week after doing NYC.)
I headed out to the Hamptons Thursday night, and brought my bike. Instead, my friend Heather and I went on a 3-mile run Friday and one on Saturday. Should I have been running more? (Or biking more? Or swimming more?) Yes. Did I care? Honestly, no, not really.
Around 2pm yesterday, I decided I couldn’t put it off any longer and needed to get on the bike. I had 2.5 hours on my plan, and the plan was to go out to Montauk and back. I took off, and I started getting into my head, as I tend to do on the bike. (Uh, and life.)
Just why was I doing this? I didn’t want to ride 2.5 hours yesterday afternoon because I’d rather be at the beach with my friends, yes, but I didn’t want to ride 2.5 hours or 3 hours or more next weekend, and more the weekend after that.
Once I finally realized I could do it, it actually freed up the space for me to realize I didn’t really want to do it. Not right now, or maybe not ever. (Unclear.)
I enjoyed learning more about biking and swimming leading up to the NYC Tri, but I don’t feel comfortable enough (or that I could become comfortable enough) riding 56 miles on the bike in the next 6 weeks.
I absolutely see more triathlons in my future (in fact, I’m thinking of looking at some shorter ones this year before the season’s up), but I think I need to really learn more and get more comfortable at shorter distances IF I want to do a longer distance.
I do believe I could have finished it, but it’s just not my priority right now.
Immediately I started thinking, “what’s my next goal?” When I told Heather this, she asked if I always had to have some sort of athletic goal.
Yup. I feel a lot more grounded and centered when I have some goal I’m reaching towards…
Unless it’s just not the goal for me right now.
I don’t know if I have another goal right now, or if I want one or need one.
Work, my friends and dating are my priorities right now. The idea of training for a long race now is as mentally exhausting as it is physically exhausting. I could certainly fit in the training if I want to, but I just don’t want to right now.
So, I emailed the lovely Ironman PR people this morning, thanked them for everything, and told them I’d be withdrawing, and they were very kind about it.
What I want to know from you: what else do you want to know about what I learned about triathlon training along the way? I also plan on doing a gear roundup of my favorite products soon, so let me know if you have any gear questions, too!
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Good for you :) I did a sprint duathlon that I was not trained for and it was pretty brutal. I was walking up hills pulling my bike along...
Aaaand that was part of my fear on the bike.
Good for you for realizing what you want/do not want to do! Far too often we compare ourselves to what others are doing/accomplishing and feel like we should have/need to have a lofty fitness or athletic goal - when in reality I don't think there's anything wrong or missing in enjoying shorter distances or simply the activity itself (vs racing). As someone who dislikes the bike portion of the tri (and I obviously get passed by everyone and their grandmother), I know how you feel. Love the swim and the run (swim is my favorite part) but the bike - yeah I'd rather skip that....
I haven't signed up for a tri this year simply because I've been so busy with finishing grad school/RD exam/looking for a job (still looking) that I haven't been biking much and I realize I could have made the time - but it just wasn't a priority. Instead I've enjoyed swimming, HIIT workouts and getting back into strength training - and that's been A-OK :)
You did an awesome job at Franklin Lakes & the NYC Tri - great accomplishments right there.
My question is - for tri training, is it worth it to get a swim and bike coach and how much should you expect to invest in coaching fees?
Thanks! And good luck on your next tri - whatever distance - I'm sure you'll rock it!
My coaching fees were covered, so let me check on that for you! I don't hate biking, I just don't love it enough to ride 56 miles in a few weeks confidently. But yes, def prefer run + swim :)
@Theodora Blanchfield: Thanks!
I think you made the right decision. If you aren't into some 100% then why dedicate so much time and effort to it? That's how I Felt about marathon training this year. I knew I could do one and kind of wanted to, but 90% of me didn't want to go through all the training this summer, so I decided against it. Nothing wrong with changing your mind!
I do want to try a sprint tri...maybe next year. Idk I'm a horrible swimmer and don't even own a bike so I have no clue where to start. How many weeks is a training plan? Any tips for TOTAL newbies?
I so did a "gateway drug" tri - the swim was in a pool and the bike was like 10? 13? miles
For my first, I loosely followed this Hal Higdon program: http://halhigdon.staging.racersites.com/training/51326/Triathlon-Training-Triathlon-1
Basically, if you've done marathons/halfs, you have the fitness to do a sprint, I think.
We also have some beginner swim tips up at work: http://dailyburn.com/life/fitness/swimming-workouts-tips/
And Katy Widrick wrote a guest post on my blog YEARS ago re:first tris: https://preppyrunner.com/2011/01/so-you-want-to-try-a-tri/
Wow, big decision. I'm training for my first half Ironman and am definitely revving up for longer and longer rides, it's just fitting it in with 3 kids and a job that is the challenge! I'm hoping to do another in 2015 too! Good luck with your next goals!
Awesome - love that you're doing what makes YOU happy and not what you felt pressure to do!
Total respect. Well done for staying true to your priorities. It really is not possible to do it all.
I'm currently going through this same thought process around the Dopey Challenge in January. After three months of being sick, I'm not sure I'm ready to jump right into training for that. It's tough though because I've spent serious $$ on the registration.
tough decision, but definitely seems like the right decision. i am sure there will be other great races right around the corner!
Wow that must have been a tough one. At least you figured it out. I'm having a hard time getting motivated to train for my 70.3 as well. Finding the time is impossible (yet as I sit here on my computer) ha! Anyways good for you for figuring it out. Best of luck.
Good for you! I can understand a lot of your feelings right now. I am running Chicago and NYCM this year and I keep wondering - am I doing this for ME or am I feeling like I HAVE to - the answer is still unclear. I am hating long runs, more than I can say I ever have in the past (I mean they suck in general but seriously my motivation for them is non existent!). I know I will be so happy to run the marathons but my heart is not 100% in it right now.