I may never podium at a race.
I may never break some of the PRs I set several years ago when time was more ample and life was easier.
And thatâ€™s OK. For now, maybe forever.Â
Life is serious. Running doesnâ€™t haveÂ to be. (Itâ€™s totally fine/cool if it is â€” if that also gives you some level of enjoyment, sense of accomplishment or pride.)
So for six miles yesterday morning, with one of my best friends, Camille, by my side, we laughed, we talked about the tough stuff, the fun stuff, the running-is-both-awesome-and-terrible stuff, and the OMG itâ€™s 91% humidity.
We stopped to walk when we needed toâ€¦and when a fountain presented itself in East River Park, I ran through it, joyful like a child, and obviously made her record it so, yeah, I could share it, but also for me to look back on during harder days and remember that moment of joy in the midst of the chaos and the pain. Her coach calls it â€œletâ€™s play running,â€ and for a little while yesterday morning, I truly felt like a child at play.
Iâ€™ve always been a terrible napper (thank you #anxiety), but I donâ€™t think itâ€™s a coincidence that after this run, I managed to fall asleep on the train out to NJ, content and at peace that Iâ€™d done something for myself.Â
How do you find the JOY in running/working out?Â