2020, I Focus

2017, I lost.

2018, I fell apart.

2019, I rebuilt.

2020, I focus.

I started writing a recap of 2019, but it felt redundant, so I’m going to look forward instead.

I used to write resolution/goal posts that were entirely achievement-based, but I want to focus instead on how things make me feel. (Something I wrote here on using intrinsic motivation to help you meet your goals.)

I’m beginning grad school next week (eep!), and this is my number one priority for the next two years. I want to get as much out of this experience as possible, and soak in as much as I can so that I can become the best therapist I can be for my future clients.

And so I want to live my life with intention. I’ll be much more busy than I’ve been in a while, but I don’t want to live my life on auto-pilot like I did in NYC. I need to keep up my self-care in order to really be present in my life. And so I need to be careful about not trying to do All the Things so that I can achieve this. I had been thinking about starting up my podcast again, but I have no idea what it will be like to be back in school, and so I don’t need to add something else back on my plate when I will still be working, too.

As I wrote on Instagram, I also want to be open to love and be open-hearted. I’m not getting any younger, and I would love to meet someone.

What I want to let go of: COMPARISON. I’ve had a nasty case of jealousy and comparing myself to others the past few years, and clearly it has done nothing to serve me.

What about you? What are you focusing on? What are you letting go of?

9 comments on “2020, I Focus

  1. Lindsay

    I’m choosing to focus on transformation, in multiple areas of my life. I’m choosing to let go of expectations.

  2. Beckett @ Birchwood Pie

    Happy New Year and good luck in school. I went back to grad school and finish 5 years ago now and it was TOUGH but so worth it. School work was all that I did for two years, but I knew that it wouldn’t last forever. You are smart to start with the focus on self care, your podcast and everything on the internet will still be there when you finish school, and if you’re able to work on them with school work, it’s easy enough to start them back up once you get into a groove. Selfishly, I hope you’ll have time for blogging along the way because you know I’ll be reading along.

  3. Tara

    this sounds like an amazing retreat! Kudos to you for going alone. I have always wanted to go to a retreat like this (or any self care retreat) however I dont have any friends that would find this fun or worthwhile. I need to get my big girls pants on and do it on my own!

    I think alot of us have the comparison problem, I blame Social Media-or I should say I blame myself for getting too absorbed by Social Media. I need to spend LESS time scrolling and more time on intentional self care (personal development books, self care and time away from the screen and out in nature/working out etc).
    Congrats on school, that is great!!! xoxoox

    1. Theodora Blanchfield Post author

      Thank you! I am pretty good at making friends/connections in groups, so I wasn’t super worried about that part, though I was a little worried everyone *else* would be there with friends and I’d be all alone, but that wasn’t the case.

      I didn’t always feel that way about comparison on social media and I hate that I do now, but at least I recognize it…? I do set limits on my phone, but then promptly ignore them. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

  4. Bhawna

    Comparison is the death of joy. You are so young and have the maturity to realize it by yourself. Best of luck to you in finding love and joy in 2020


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