This Week

This week. Good god. 

Coming back from a vacation is always a bit of a letdown; transitioning from seeing the world and having amazing experiences back to real life can straight-up just be lame sometimes. 

But this week has been an absolute and total rollercoaster of emotions.

Just before boarding my flight back on Monday, I learned my friend Emily’s mom was in hospice. My mom was scheduled to bring Bailey back on Tuesday night, and I had her over for dinner and sat on the couch and just sobbed to her and implored her to take care of herself so she could live forever. I also took my last CrossFit Elements class on Tuesday! All ready for the big-kid workouts now.

Wednesday morning, I found out Emily’s mom had lost her battle with pancreatic cancer. My heart ached for my friend and her pain, and I couldn’t stop thinking about my own parents’ mortality. This is the second friend of mine who’s lost a parent in the past year, and I don’t want to imagine a world without my parents.

Thursday, I got to take a preview class at the new SLT in Flatiron with my girl Liz.

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And then I found out another friend was having a crisis, so I spent much of Thursday worried about her and then getting together with her at night to make sure she was okay.

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Friday, I went to the Runner’s World NYC Marathon party. Although I still have some pretty severe marathon FOMO, it was nice to not be running it and be able to have as much wine as I wanted. I hung out with Mary and a bunch of other New Balance people and had an absurd amount of fun.

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This morning, I had a (much much overdue) appointment for a haircut, and I accidentally got bangs. I asked for sideswept ones…and got this. I like it, but I think I’ll be sick of it in a few weeks/months.

And then I went to Emily’s mom’s funeral today.

This week has been a freaking emotional rollercoaster, and I can’t wait to go to bed now and go watch the marathon tomorrow.

12 comments on “This Week

  1. Lauren @ Beautiful Plant-Based Life

    Hang in there, Theodora! I’m sure your friends are grateful for your love and support right now. When I’ve had an overwhelming week like yours I start to feel… old. You’re dealing with some heavy real-life stuff. I hope that you’re able to enjoy Marathon Sunday. Take some time for yourself before another work week begins. 🙂

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  2. Mom

    Yes, life is like that some times with its ups and downs. When we go through
    the bad times or the sad times of our lives it makes us appreciate just how much
    we really have and value our lives. My heart goes out to Emily and her family too
    and we wish her comfort of her family and friends at this time.
    We love you too Theodora we will do our best and are here for your always and forever,
    because our world is better with you in it.
    Enjoy every day life is a gift cherish it!

    Mom and Dad

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  3. Meghan

    Hugs to your friend! I lost my dad when I was 21, and it really changed how I valued all of my relationships, especially with my mom and sister. I try to be a lot more present and appreciative of each moment.

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  4. Mary

    A couple weeks ago my mom had a scare with a breast lump. I had to take a day to just sit in my bed and sob, because I had the same thought experience. It doesn’t help that my mom didn’t have me until she was 38. My parents are my favorite people in the world and I feel so incapable of doing anything without their constant support. I’ve been doing my best to let myself have the pleasure of knowing their healthy, encouraging everyone to take better care of themselves, and trust that God will never give me more pain than I can live through.

    Mary Mae
    Pacific Prep

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  5. Tracy Schwartz

    I lost my mom to cancer a little over 4 years ago when I was 23 and she was 50. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of her, miss her, and wish I could spend more time with her. I have the greatest memories and I would never change that.

    Love that your mom comments on your blog! Cherish every minute!!

    My heart goes out to Emily and her family.

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  6. Ellen

    I’m working on my doctorate and haven’t been keeping up with my blogs. I saw the email and I LOVE YOUR BANGS! Wow what a difference. You look updated and fresh. (Not that you looked bad before) Please don’t hate them! 🙂

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