After I decided not to do the half-Ironman, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
Having struggled with anxiety, I’ve generally tried to remove stress where I can in my life. I remember Katy wrote a great post a few years ago about the “summer of no.” I’ve been trying to simplify my life where possible so I can focus on the things I can control to make me happy.
In 2009, I walked into New York Sports Club and told JoelÂ I wanted to lose weight. Since then, I’ve basically had some sort of big fitness goal every year. Since 2010, that meant running a fall marathon. So it was almost on autopilot that I decided to sign up for the HIM. Obviously I’d tackle a big fitness goal this year, and I wasn’t feeling another marathon and I’d had a good triathlon and wanted to take that to the next distance.
I haven’t had a summer/early fall since I lost weight that I wasn’t trying to fit in long training sessions (usually runs) around fun weekend plans, which I didn’t realize until I dropped out. Between this and my Junior League commitment ending at the end of June, this newfound free time is freaking amazing. I still see people’s training updates on the social mediaz and get tiny pangs of wondering if I really made the right decision, but the relief outweighs that.
I think I was afraid that without a big fitness goal that I’d gain back all the weight. But considering what a huge part of my life fitness is now, I don’t foresee that happening.
I’ve been toying around with if there’s something IÂ do want to focus on right now, but I don’t. I still might do another tri before the end of the season, but otherwise I’m having fun doing a little bit of whatever. This week, I took two days in a row off from working out and then did some swimming, some Uplifting and some Soul Cycle with a coworker. It was nice to not have to say no because I had xx training to fit in, or to figure out how I could then get in another workout on top of that to get my training in.
A few months ago, I wrote that I felt rudderless without a training plan.Â Maybe I still feel a little rudderless now, butÂ that’s okay. I’m learning how to be okay with not necessarily having everything planned out.
This morning, I did a different kind of triathlon at Uplift – it was 1.5 hours and combined their three different class formats, Strength, HIIT and Sculpt Fusion.Â It started approximately 7 hours after my friends left my apartment for a dinner party I hosted, so it was TOUGH. But fun.
Maybe I’ll focus on strength training, maybe I’ll do some shorter tris/join a tri club, maybe I’ll try CrossFit. Who knows?
Are you training for anything?Â