There are just a few things I want right now:
A big fat PR in March
To be happy.
Not so much to ask for, right? (My mom asked me for what I wanted for my birthday, and I can say thereâ€™s honestly nothing material I am longing for right now. Truly.)
Thereâ€™s obviously some things in that second category that would make me happier. But I have to trust Iâ€™m working towards those things and doing what I can, and at some point I have to let go and let the universe do its thang.
Iâ€™ve made some really conscious decisions lately towards those goals.
Water over wine.
Early bedtimes over time screwing around on my phone in bed.
Choosing vegetables over carbs.
Doing things that make me feel alive rather than things I feel like I should.
Letting the people who care about me know when I need to lean on them.
Striking that balance between overbooking myself and spending too much time with my thoughts.
Pushing past fears and whatâ€™s comfortable.
Meditating on it.
Being kinder to myself and beating down negative thoughts.
And it feels good. Iâ€™m hitting a groove in running again, and Iâ€™m starting to attract what I want in life.
What goals do you want that youâ€™re sacrificing for in the now?